This book was conceived and created within a few weeks that represented such a time in the early summer of 2021. As my life had fallen apart for various reasons in Portland, I found myself a year into living in Los Angeles completely lacking any sense of stability or hope in the future. The threads I clung to seemed to be turning into a more stable rope, which then soon frayed and left me then without any sense of direction, purpose or hope.
The same way the internet has caved into a cesspool of commerce and gossip, I felt my life was degrading into nothing but despair and alcoholism. This is a visual representation of the anger, sadness and frustration that came with the constant depression and inability to work otherwise. There is no real writing or language in the book other than a few scans of magazine headlines—only visually intense yet confused imagery formed to represent my feelings at the time.
asterisk Los Angeles, California
sound art by colin smith. random collaborations happen along the road.
